last saturday , was marching competition . before we went for the competition , we have knew the result . thats why , Hong Liang , pres for pmo , kept asking us dont care about other team , do our best and so on . you know , those encouragements that cheer us up . yeah , i really gave out my best . i never be that serious in marching before . haha . we didnt get any prizes . our rm100 turned to badges . LOL . we got to pay for the competition one you knowww ! kadet polis got first for kawad bunga and kawad kaki . expected already . they practiced like sial you know . and WE , practice for not more than 10 times . how to win ? FORGET ABOUT IT . but when they announced the result , really felt disappointed . couldnt stop the feeling come towards me . =S
this competition taught me two lessons .
- no matter what , do your best in everything you do , dont make yourself regret when its too late .
- no matter how best you did , sometimes , you couldnt get back the thing you want . dont expect you can 100%get back the thing you want .
guess what , i was so shocked today when i have a talk with my mum . she told me someone helped me to pay for the camp , my church camp . SHOCKED . who is that person uh ? why he/she wants to pay for me ? anyway , my mum said the only thing you can do is pray for that person . ok . i prayed already . may the Lord always be with you , that person :)
1 week has passed , and yet , i still didnt reaceive the msg . i thought of i can hurt him in this way so that he will hate me , but at the end the person was me . LOL . thought of he will text me a msg like : i feel very disappointed of you , you dont even wish me , what kind of mui are you ? something like that . but , i DID NOT RECEIVE IT =C why why why ? this time , i have no need to do anything , automatically , im no longer exist in his world , invisible for him . yeah , this was what i wanted . i feel sad . my heart is bleeding . i didnt disguise my feelings . maybe the feeling isnt that strong anymore ? dont know dont know dont know . let it be .. let everything goes by its way . things are uncontrollable .
pimples are poping outttt !!! as a result of standing under the hot sun . i get dark . can see the colour ton , SO OBVIOUS !
father Lord , You are the only person who knows what i need and what i want . Lord , fill me . may your presence with me no matter what i do . in Jesus name I pray , Amen .
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