leehom's new song , heartbeat .
stuck with the song , xin tiao heartbeat by leehom . 988 keeps playing his songs over and over again and my aunt , who drives me to school , is 988 fans , she never tune to other channels .
i hate myself for being unable to know what i want and what i need . hate myself for being easily get influenced by my friends especially my decisions . im confused . first thing , i dont know i should run away from it or force myself to face it . i couldnt make myself to decide . iiiissshhh . im tired , sick of it , wanted to free myself from it but something made me felt guilty and selfish . secondly , i should have stick to the decision , the plan . but i dont think it suits me . i need to do something to improve my english if i really want to take that course . you know , my english isnt that good .
today's date : 8 of jan .
im not prepared to welcome 2009 yet . i still not prepared to study in school as a form5 student .
my dear time , you have been flying too fast , cant you slow a little bit ? a little bit would make everyone happy .
p.s. : not emo-ing . i wish God can show me the way .
Labels: crap, daily life
