i will slowly walk to a correct direction.i knew i would.
i realised something.
everyone has a life to live on, everyone has their own world. your so called your gang of people, can be said are living in the same world with you. i realised , my classmates werent in the same world of mine.oh no , i shouldnt have said in this way.
i shall say it was my fault. i always live in other people's world.
thats why i hardly found my own world. feel so lonely, feel so alone, feel like no one.

i always thinking about this question, are you the one of the leavers or you stay ?
not really feeling emo. this is life, this is a fact. everyone will leave you one day, it is just the matter of time.
i told myself never depend on other people anymore. because when the person walked away, you will feel so lost and no one to depend on. the emptiness, suffers, heartache, not everyone can take it.
BUT, i want to let other people to depend on me, and slowly i teach them to be more independent.
GOSH, i dont know what i am talking about.
yes , i still ask God for the same question every night, which road should i take ? =X
do you know what ?

i am actually afraid of being alone.
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