today went to pmo practice . as usual . back to the old timetable . morning teach juniors , afternoon practice . then went back home and feel tired . the routine is still same .

but today , there was a bit difference . she's back . she was here today ! oh sugar !
today form4s were having meeting for our camp . coming on next saturday . pray very hard for it . hope everything is ok and all goes like our plan . our meeting ended very late . so we have our lunch late too . lunch at kanna . save money ah ! all the petrol's fault . the price has increased from rm 1.92 to rm 2.70 . sial sial sial . my dream car gone . thought of having my own personal car after graduated and get my license . but now , i rather take bus or lrt . much cheaper wei !

ok , continue my story first ..

after lunch , we went to bus stop . accompanied JoLee . she was waiting for taxi to HaiLo . on that time , suddenly i saw her was walking towards us . i asked my friend , again and again , was it her ? i wasnt mistaken right ? well , i just changed my spec wei ! for sure my eye sight should be better ! she waves to us . oh sugar , the two words came across my mind . she came for practice ! oh sugar !@#$%^&*&^%$#@!~

why ? why she come back to school again ? you know , i just cannot face her . i have a kind of feeling sad each and everytime i see her . no matter how i try hard , how i do my best , is like , she covers her eyes with her hands so that she cannot see my effort . since that day , i guess , she doesnt like me . she dont even want to talk to me . maybe she thinks that im just playing around and seriously im not . why another she can see my effort but she cant ?

like today , when i have missed some parts , she will look at me . i dont dare to look at her so i dont know how she look at me but i know she is looking at me . oh sugar sugar sugar . i guess , i meant i guess , im not sure that , she purposely find the part that i dont really know how to play . pointing there and asked me to play together , with her . that time , my hands were shaking , a bit , when i heard her voice . thats why , i looked so sad after all they gone and left me and her . i couldnt smile . :(

name list of candidates for next year committees were announced today . for sure , my form4s' names are there . ok , my interview is on thrusday . die soon .

lately ,

my mind was distracted by pmo , the two words , hua yue . once i heard it , i will feel very annoy and what what what , i dont know how to describe . so , i borrowed book from friends to read so that i wont use my mind to think other things :P

i have kind of feelings that many problems are coming but i have no idea what will be it .
argghhh .. whatever . dont care . i dont want to use my mind to think since exam has over !

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