take my hand , take a breath , hold me close , take one step , and tell me this is forever .
I'm all out of love , I'm so lost without you , you are the colour , the rainbow in my sky .
I'm speechless when you talk to me , I'm breathless when you look at me .
You are too special , i know i will never met a person like you again .
Distance is the most scariest thing in the world , the main reason for couple to break up .
爱来过，来的那么美，那么凶，叫人如何抗拒它呢？
問自己習慣了嗎 ，沒有你每到夜裏回聲變得好大，寂寞也变得不听话


RANDOMMMMMMMM ~~~~~ im sial . lol


enjoy ? i dont feel so . suffer ? not that worse . maybe this is a challenge for myself . i feel myself is getting weaker and weaker when day passes . why ? i hate myself seriously . why do i feel scare when i am standing in front of the person hates me ? i feel myself weak and not albe to defend for myself . or maybe i should say i dont even have the chance to defend myself . i still have 2 more weeks . i really wish i no need to face her . i dont know the way she acts is just trying to turn me into good or torture me . i really really dont know . i have no way to go . its like forcing me to walk on the same road she walks . i cannot fight or defend . her eyes are like scary , the thing which makes me feel myself very very tiny .

thank you for people who give me the chance to renew myself . thank you for the people who can see my effort . all these while i have tried myself to become better , nicer to everyone , tolerate with other people more . i really tried my best . maybe there are people out there still hate me the way i am . maybe im just another perfectionist , trying to make everyone accepts me though i know i cant , trying to make myself perfect which make people feel even worse about me , hate me more .

you know what , im tired . I AM TIRED . especially to the people who hate me . i have tried my best to change the impression of me in their hearts but i have failed . i begins to feel tired , exhausted , hopeless , no energy , the protective membrane is getting thinner when the attacks are getting more and more .

three words for you all ,


p.s. : truth is too scary for me , dont reveal it , let me run away first .

Labels: crap, explosion of feelings