我不是一定要你回來
只是當獨自走入人海
除了你之外的依賴
還有誰能叫我勇敢

currently addicted to this song .


my brain is stuck with thousands of words and i really dont know type out which one first .
ok, guess im having pms-ing thats why my emotions are a little uncontrollable.
it might because of lately the weather is also emotional . feeling like cry ? CRY . and the sky will rain like one whole month it has not been raining .

yeah , having holidays . more free than usual days . have the chance to look at the sky . the sky was so beautiful when it was sunny day . it was so well mixed , the blue sky and white cloud .
and lately i feel like , why all friends of mine seemed to be disappeared in the world ? they still talk to me i mean , i feel that our hearts are far apart , not really close like we used to . you know , so near yet so far . i felt this way , few weeks ago ? i tried to go closer to them but it seemed like they have built a big wall between me and them . i dont know why . am i being too sensitive ? i hope so . not to a specific person . i treat them with all of my heart , sincerely , when i say yes i mean it and when i say no of course i mean it , i am being honest to them , you should right ?

he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar ,
the only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
he's the song in the car , i keep singing
dont know why i do ..

one thing , i dont get back what i thought i at least could get from them . i mean , you treat other people nice and definitely you hope they will treat you good too . i try to treat them like one of the close friends i have , but they seem to be like , no , you cant be one of my closest friends , we are ONLY FRIENDS. OUCH !


maybe i was expecting too much from friends ?

maybe i shouldnt be expecting too much , people have their own rights , how they treat you is none of my business ?

or it was me closing the door too long ? they tried to knock but i never open to them ?

WHY DO I FEEL LIKE ALL THE FRIENDS ARE RUNNING FROM ME ? :(
can i hear someone to say , i still care about you ? :(

but you are not alone , for i am here with you ,
though you far away , i am here to stay .
you are not alone , for i am here with you
though we far apart , you're always in my heart .

first i need your hand , then forever can begin ..

p.s. : happy birthday , MJ :)

Labels: crap, daily life, explosion of feelings