today saw penguins in the newspaper and chee seng was sharing his experience in australia trip . he went to visit penguins . gosh , penguins are not afraid of humans ! he said all the penguins were just right next to his legs . OMGGGG ! and funny thing is , penguins usually move together in a group like a family , when one of the penguins of the group falls down , the other penguins will stop , turn to the fall down penguin and standing there to wait for it to join back their group . cool uh ? i wonder how they know ? it is really weird . hahahahaha .
weather is really hot . no matter how many hours i sleep for everyday it seems to be useless because the hotness of the weather eventually will make you feel sleepy . so powerful ~ ==
i wonder why , it just a phone call . it has the ability to make my hand shake and my legs weak . what a powerful phone call . but too bad he didnt pick up the phone even though i have called like dont know how many times with different numbers . yeah , in chinese people say it is mei you yuan fen which means no fate . its like ages ago things have happened , all the feelings are fading away , the pain isnt that hurt anymore .
oh yeah , thanks to him , i have came up a conclusion .
- letting someone go is not really about how deep you love him/her . the real motive is giving both a chance to meet another special person , better person or even a perfect person for them . letting both has more colourful sky , make each other grow . oh yes , i know this theory sounds so correct . lol .
im going to burst today , no matter what . i cant stand it for any longer . aku beh tahan . to be honest , i really dont know why i feel this way , i dont feel like going there anymore , i feel unmotivated . there is nothing can make me feel like going there . i dont have that kind of passion anymore . last time , i felt guilty when i skip . but now i can just skip without feeling any guiltiness and think that my own things are more important than going there . what's wrong ? this problem not only occurs to me but most of the people around me . we dont have the passion , dont have the motivation . we begin to skip all the practices , hate going there . we even discuss about it but no one knows why . no one knows where is the problem from and why the problem can be spread to so many peoples like a virus , HIV ? WOOOOW .
to be specific , for my own self . i have put my studies first this year . i feel like myself so hardworking this year lol . SERIOUSLY . i hardly fall asleep in the class also . and people in there , no other words can be used to say about them . im totally speechless and so lazy to talk about them . pointless keep talking about them where the point is the same . they dont seem to understand us or maybe we dont seem to be understand too .
for one thing i knew it deeply in my heart is that , they got to take part of the responbility about it too . i think most of the problems are from them ? dont know . i really dont know and it seems to be i no need to know , i dont need to know and i myself dont want to know why . it hopeless even though you know because you cannot change anything .
i know i know , they are trying to bring up the young ones . yes , i am useless shouldnt be exist there at the first . but i dont regret for staying til now honestly :)
p.s. : ulcer is killing me . i wonder why all the lizard are running around in my living house . disgusting ==
p.p.s. : guys who play piano have some kind of power to attract girls . i dont know why . i always get attracted by looking at the guy when he is playing piano . not like i am falling in love with the guy but it just that they look so different when they are playing piano .
http://media.photobucket.com/image/penguins/andiinicole/Stuff/pen.gif?o=33
evil penguins :D
Labels: daily life, explosion of feelings, him, pmo
