seriously, nothing in life seems to be clear except what am i going to do the next day. everything is so blur and i cant help to live like a blur blur person. worries are useless so i may not look like i am worrying but sometimes i do. oh well, its my future, how can i not to worry? :) life like this, challenging me to hold strong, not too fall i guess.


there goes another interview of scholarship. hmmm. sometimes i just dont get it why they required us to wear formal, like office lady for the interview. we arent preparing interview to get a job. i mean, not casual but semi formal? maybe a skirt will be okay. hmmm. nevermind, i guess all interviews are over now. dont think there will be another calling me for another interview.


hmmm. living in a blur isnt good. so many things to worry about and yet so little space for my brain to work out :( im falling soon =\ im still standing strong each day passes is because God holds me. i really cannot imagine life with God when God is my everything. sometimes i just dont get it why my life is so much different from others that i know. WHY? life is unfair and i already accepted the fact, but, why there are so much mountains to climb? :(

seriously, i feel myself so weak. i hate moving on my life into another phase. it is just so hard for me to go through it. sometimes i really feel like crying out loudly to God but i dont do so. crying is so helpless, so pointless. if i cried could make everything easier, i would cry everyday, shed my tears til it is out of supply. so breathless :(


God wouldnt tell me the direction. He wouldnt. challenging my patience and confidence in him? i do have, i really do. but the blurness of vision makes me feel so scare, so scare everything will end up not so good. sigh. i need peace eh.

i should start to take picture with the peace sign so that i could have peace. XD



feeling of knowing someone is smiling because of your smile is good.
feeling of knowing someone is worrying for you when you are sick or down is good.
feeling of knowing someone is care for you when you feels like nobody is good.
feeling of knowing someone is thinking of you when their minds start to wondering is good. feeling of knowing someone will text you to make sure you have taken your daily meals is good.
feeling of knowing someone text you in the morning, ensuring you will start your day with a good mood is good.
feeling of knowing someone keeps asking you to go to bed early like your cute mama is good.
feeling of knowing someone checks out your statuses to know your daily mood is good.
feeling of knowing someone treats you like a precious stone is good.
feeling of knowing someone is always be there whenever you need someone to talk with.


this person is just like another family member of mine, makes me feels better by giving me the assurance when i have no confident :D

maybe, i have started to rely on this person from the beginning and i didnt realise =X

thank God that i have another person to rely on cause it is really hard to find this kind of person :D

human changes when time flies. this person might walk away one day because tired of me, i know i do make people tired. see my mama's face you will know. LOL!

p.s. : thank you :)

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